LOVE POEMS FOR THE INCOMPETENT
      
      
      
      
      
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               Love Poems for the Incompetent
      
                  Copyright 1969, (C)1997
              by FISHHOOK and Dennis M. Hammes
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                            for
      
                           Carol
      
      
      
      
      
      
      
      
      
      
           I suggest that an emotion which can be 
      destroyed by a little mathematics is neither 
      very genuine nor very valuable.
      
                                    Bertrand Russell
      
      
      
      
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      1
           Summer Break
      
      
      How is it that I love you?
         Let me count the ways.
      I love you as I see you,
         As through a rosy haze;
      
      I love you to the breadth and depth
         Of this great universe,
      And I shall be yours truly,
         Through better and this verse.
      
      Though some love's not enduring,
         And some romance untrue,
      Until the Black Hole have us,
         I'll always love just you.
      
      Whenever we are far apart,
         My love is more the same:
      I gaze upon your picture,
         And sink right through the frame;
      
      'Tis not enough--within my heart,
         I feel a burning pain,
      And I long to be with you,
         Walking lovers' lane.
      
      Even though I'm not quite sure
         What our love has begun,
      Perhaps I'll even love you
         When summer break is done.






      
      2
                Weather Chat
      
      
      I think I smell rain in the air, my old friend,
      Though the radio forecast a balmy weekend.
      But I feel a bit chill, under coat, scarf, and glove.
      (I had hoped it were warm as a word with my love.)
      
      I think I smell rain.  I have beer at my place.
      It should cloud before showers, but hurry your pace
      Or we're caugght in the rain.  There is at least one
      Though yet undetected, steals warmth from the sun.
      
      I think I smell rain yes, that's water's dank scent;
      Perhaps yet this morning, say, forty percent.
      You chide that my prognostication's not schooled?
      Well, my weatherman's nose cannot often be fooled!
      
      And I think I smell rain, though no cloud mars the sky
      It steals warmth from our fun. What, you say that I sigh,
      As though with your company all were not well;
      That there's more that I wish?  Now, how could you tell?
      
      Well, I thought I smelled rain.  Please excuse my short sight
      And my argument's error, though partially right --
      But I wonder, my friend, do you think it is wise
      That a weatherman's nose lie so close to his eyes?






      
      3
           Poetry
      
      
      I sit and wonder
      For a while
      At how, with
      Literary Style,
      
      To speak my mind
      With words of Art
      That I might win
      A lady's heart;
      
      Then wonder if
      The words I've sung
      Were for the girl,
      Or for the tongue.






      
      4
                Endgame
      
      
      At ease beside my hearth one night,
      The fire for my only light;
      With pipe and brandy at my hand,
      Vivaldi on the record stand,
      And pop concerto from the grate,
      My thoughts took on a tranquil state.
      
      Suddenly, around my chair
      Came merry chuckles, flashing hair,
      As flames cast you in orange for me
      And jarred me out of my reverie,
      Smiling.  But before I spoke,
      You'd gone again, and scented smoke
      Was all that marked your brief hello.
      
      Then, teasing too, it turned to go.






      
      5
                Apologia
      
      
      I chanced one day to pause too long from quest,
      Share thought with one whose course seemed kin to mine :
      Platonic is the state I deem divine,
      And shun as daft who bear romantic crest;
      But virgin lodger wakened then from rest,
      With foreign face -- I thought I knew them all
      Who dwelt within, though this were virgin call
      That brought him forth.  He speaks for me in gest --
        Though never in jest : too vast is his revere,
      This amiable giant.  Swift his gait
      Now once awakened : him I cannot sate,
      Or blind again with flimsy cloak of fear,
      And reason is no stay against his might :
      He has vision, I have only sight.






      
      6
                Parlor Trick
      
      
      A parlor trick told wisdom's wist
      When I squeezed within my fist
      An egg, and felt it pressing back
      With force, instead of squirting crack.
      
      In unity its strength is found
      Resisting equally around,
      But did I tap on just the top
      And bottom, then the sides would pop.
      
      You are ways that I am not,
      And where you want I'm polyglot :
      Within love's eggshell, let us fix
      Ourselves, to stay world's parlor tricks.






      
      7
           Suite for Three Voices
      
      
        I.  /Pastorale/
      
      He had seen the pupa dance
      Into winged pomp and circumstance
      To set the stage : a mossy dell
      Beneath an azure velvet swell
      Where birch, in golden livery,
      Stood herald for His Majesty.
      And he heard whisperings of the breeze
      (Secrets meant for none but trees)
      And leavesdropped in the wood so long
      That summer's breath became a song
      Enchanting -- an idyllic lay
      Whose tempo sparked the sprite's ballet :
      Such song, before he could depart
      He felt her dancing on his heart.
      
      /One was the lad with the whispering leaf
       And one were the woodland and he,
      But his love for a lady can only be brief,
       For he and the others are three; his love
       And the woods and the lady are three./
      
      
        II.  /Air/
      
      He left the forest for the glade
      Where his fancy found a mortal maid,
      Whose eyes caressed Apollo's hue
      With a gaze once none but eagles knew.
      Two hundred horses, fiery, proud,
      Drummed chorus for her dance on cloud;
      Two thousand pounds of steel and she
      Were one in silver symmetry
      With rarer winds unknown to churls
      Like tall woodsmen and walking girls.
      But fortune favored circumstance,
      And he was caught by the eagle's glance,
      Which softened as it met his eye,
      And the tall trees touched the wing-swept sky.
      
      /One was the lass with the whispering wing,
       And one were Lycoming and she;
      But love for this girl's an impossible thing,
       For she and the others are three; the love
       And the sky and the lady are three./
      
      
        III.  /Trio/
      
      Though each sang songs they'd sung before,
      Each thought they might love loving more.
      And so it seemed : they sat embraced
      While over earth the shadows chased;
      Or fingered music born of strings,
      Made ballads of their wanderings.
      But when they tried to sing duet
      Their harmony began to fret
      (Though each alone was very good) :
      Her voice was clouded, his was wood.
      So who could blame them if their bliss
      Was interrupted by their kiss?
      Though presence was a pleasant thing,
      In song, their voices found no ring.
      
      /One with the wind and one with the wood
       And one with our singing were we;
      And sing to the other is all that one should,
       But the wind and the forest made three : the love
       And the wind and the forest made three!/






      
      8
           An Immodest Proposal (i)
      
      
      When you're travelling, I can't sleep;
      My head holds you instead of sheep,
      And who would lay himself to bed
      When his love's but in his head?
      I dream away 'til half past two,
      Wishing I could sleep with you,
      And take no blame for dreamer's might,
      As dreams are all I have at night.
      
      For simple thoughts please bear no wrath,
      But heed, instead, this simple math :
      Take dreams from dreams, when we're apart;
      Leave nothing on the serving cart.
      So take your leave, if leave you must,
      But leave my love this bit of crust,
      That, lacking coffee, lacking bread,
      Tomorrow it won't wake up dead.






      
      9
           To a Lilac
      
                i
      
      
      I started lilac stalks when spring abated,
      Shouldered by their boughs, my senses filled;
      But every scene an anxious sense created,
      My unrelenting eyes appraised and stilled.
      Mere draughts of lilac won't show if I savor
      Fragrance from one bud or court the whole,
      But eyes that want their fullness will not waver,
      And watch clenched buds blunt beauty in the bowl.
      My hapless plot saw sunsets slide toward summer
      As I trowelled, until my tongue found you :
      Your every shoot reshaped me like a hammer;
      Your every color, amethyst to dew.
        Now I can end my careful undertaking,
        And await the April of your waking.






      
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                ii
      
      
      Return your tale from April, timid bloom,
      And it will come upon you past your part
      To halt it.  Winter's vavavoom
      Can never stay us : it is time to start
      The carol you'd cadenza.  Give no thought
      To season that would not admit Pinot;
      The loss is all to them -- what diction ought
      Eschew your scents, that waive your domino?
      Get madrigal.  Let April sprawl your wood
      And spoil those guarded buds; what they unfold
      Will fiddle finer senses, as it should,
      For this is not the ragtime of the cold.
        So don't refuse perfume to blooming season;
        Blind April piques herself, and needs no reason.






      
      11
                iii
      
      
      I birled and prodded at the earth, my bold
      Strokes dividing in ready-flowing ooze
      The grown, the weed, and the budding from the mold.
      In April swill the tool and I could choose
      The way of this : the lilac's prim rows pruned,
      Defined and bordered earth seemed more important
      Than pristine paint unspread and shingles ruined
      By browning grass beyond the contract fortnight.
      By August, offsprung shoots invaded the lawn;
      They tangled the mower to a stop in September;
      Their roots and caulking humus broke the prongs
      From this cast-iron rake in Indian Summer.
        Cheap knowledge, it has justified its cost :
        Some unglazed windows, open to white frost.






      
      12
                iv
      
      
      Tall concrete tombs this prairie, but in quick,
      Small surges under the sulfrous film
      On jailed palms, the cinderblock-ringed elm,
      The good tree caught and painted on a truck,
      Beats a silent surge of telltale lilac.
      Faded icons, baptised daily, numb
      From clay and chlorine, still plink the green alm
      Into windows and the graved veins of the buck.
        I too could housefly to the scaled trough,
      Slide down the feedspout toward the mumming worms,
      Deride their writhings but with beery breath,
      Then fall, whimpering, to the ordered tombs
      If I had not heard the drumming grouse
      And cut the early lilac for my house.






      
      13
                v
      
      
      Following the long and wordless prose
      We tucked between the voices of the clock,
      The bloom was brandied, that you used to block
      Long monosyllables mumbled through my nose,
      And pull our purpled springtime to a close.
      But when I harped of harvest, you stood stock
      And open, rooted wooden to your shock,
      And pointed out some things don't stand in rows.
        Remembering the bold globe in the garden
      All violet, large enough to hold a flock
      Of waxwings; too, that it had given pardon
      By wilting other species from the walk,
      I could but think (and wish my mark could harden)
      That lilacs only grow, and seldom talk.






      
      14
                vi
      
      
      The hard caulk drops from holding up the glass
      And June rains curled the edges of the eaves;
      October trumpets shrill the holes, blow leaves
      To bank brown lilacs and the yellow grass,
      But not the house : the plumbing will not pass
      Waste products; the oil stove tolls, bereaves
      The passing of my elbows through my sleeves :
      These have caused my absence from your class.
        If noses didn't suffer from the cruddies,
      Or if I were a schizophrenic warlock,
      I'd fuel my cells, excelling in my studies
      While spreading sleek.  But I fall short of Shylock.
      I must soothe my sniffles with hot toddies :
      I'm not as wind-resistant as the lilac.






      
      15
                vii
      
      
      The fork-celled psyche is a strange appliance
      To caliper the curves of time and space :
      Senior partner in the nerve's alliance
      With fallen monks and apes, her only grace
      Is muttered as she sits to stuff her face.
      The infant thought must creep, that would outgrow
      Her old, amoebic hungers : I must pace
      The winter lilac, take my waking slow,
      Or she will ball up all the world and throw
      Down twenty theses in a single frame,
      Tear up the scoresheet, preen herself; Rousseau
      Was not the first, nor last, to lose her game,
        For what she feel fills up the head's whole room
        Although the scent were from a single bloom.






      
      16
                viii
      
      
      I hope you're not so far eight cents can't reach you
      Before the postman prods two pennies more
      For casting paper.  Not that I could beach you,
      Reel you in from sun to shaded shore
      By casting lines of ink about a page :
      You never jumped for baubles, words with hooks,
      Or promises.  And now we're of an age.
      It's time to close the creel and tend my books;
      Books are best for chair men, and the bored.
      But they stand mute, or, with your varied voices,
      Trawl drolleries or cannon-sail-and-sword
      Days in among my supermarket choices.
        And nibble my worm of words though you've the sea,
        Don't worry for the hook.  The hook has me.






      
      17
                ix
      
      
      So here we are, another short-eyed winter
      To our credit, or perhaps just here --
      You, not yet bent, yet sport another splinter
      Brought out of the deep midnight of the year,
      Some kin, though mine was mended by your cheer.
      Tough stuff, your color, weathering this plaint,
      Never having shown the shiver of fear,
      Nor lapsed from growing -- I'm the one must paint
      The trim and base, abrade away the taint
      Of mildew left by thoughts of other seasons :
      So early, and already your first faint
      Lilac resumes without selecting reasons.
        And yet, to bring your color to these rooms,
        I must trim the life out of your blooms.






      
      18
                x
      
      
      Would you dilute your spirit in a brook?
      Or its amoebic millions sum esteem
      Advance to mine, or better suit your dream
      Than collecting in the pages of a book?
      Fish in their rush run even as they look,
      Instinct pursuing minnows in a stream;
      The morsel stilled, the walleyed swallowers deem
      No wonder to the worth of what they took :
        There's voice nor value in the river's rabble,
      Running to run; they empty as they're filled
      By total volume many times their space.
      If you must sow your fruit, then let me trouble
      To ward it here, in rich ground slowly tilled,
      Where I may sound the minutes of each grace.






      
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                xi
      
      
      He who bleats that blue befits all green
      Offends the eye, if not the inner ear --
      Lilac's the cosmic blend : acknowledged queen
      To any color ruling the chromosphere,
      The subject of no season's whim : this hue
      Loves structure that the rose can never fashion.
      You are no miser's morning-glory blue;
      Do not, like rose, excite mere rakish passion,
      Lilac!  an ageless touch of spring
      Drawn out of winter : monument through snow
      To constant life, old love, and everything
      That needs not fresh afresh each year to grow!
        Such constant is night thought's eternal foil
        So constant is your bloom's essential oil.






      
      20
                xii
      
      
      The air is rent with rain.  Tornado funnels
      Attempt to pour whole gardens in the lake;
      Topsoil and loam alloyed with water runnels
      Off to roads where August winds will bake
      Fine, stinging powder, suitable to blind;
      Then the great, gas tiller rough-hauls roots
      And worries at rocks and rubble, trying to find
      A bit of loam in which to set some shoots.
      But whether I hoe slow, or throw dirt faster
      A year will see the whole plot gone to clover;
      The trouble is that zinnia, phlox, and aster
      Not only need be kept, but started over,
        Set out as seedlings, coddled, cursed, and then
        Bloom small and late where you've already been.






      
      21
                xiii
      
      
      You, lilac, live alloyed to solid soil
      And I've the sea's wild rolling in my blood :
      Salt, cellular, and subject to each flood
      Of unharmonic hormones raised to toil
      By masque of moth or mayfly's ruin, I foil
      At tendering the effortless, slick wood
      That left alone, would spread your purple brood
      On all of time's eternal cosmic coil.
        I do not own myself; should live as tenant :
      Quitting immobile stone, extol the dew;
      Commit the morning-glory of some pennant,
      Nor tipple with these gods or that guru;
      Draw out blood's loan, and when my salt is spent,
      Career myself to leaves to nourish you.






      
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                xiv
      
      
      See his short stature mime the burr and hemlock,
      Who are more certain in the less they grow;
      Then watch his syllogy attempt the lilac :
      Because lines labor, he thinks time moves slow.
      Lost in minuteness of each spiralled reason,
      Or billed by the world, he plays it as it's not;
      Too late to wear the masque in current season,
      He sings too little -- but he frets a lot.
      Though worms turn death to life, and life to soil,
      This bookworm turns the screw of his own vice;
      As moths don morning in his midnight oil,
      The lilac leaves while he's portraying ice.
        So to the world's round stage, unseason enter
        An uncured ham messiah, upstage center.






      
      23
                xv
      
      
      Unpardoned by the moon, mosquitos down
      The chilling hearth; a bucket is half-filled
      By February's promise; but the brown,
      Strong stalks of lilac still sleep snow-hilled
      In frozen ground.  Your single light, long stilled,
      Could not have made the darkness less opaque
      Or solved its corners: frost has once more silled
      The windows and the ledges of the lake.
      Neurotic newt, did you, who only wake
      To putter April rime, and that not well,
      Believe you could, with participles, fake
      The cosmic pattern of the surging cell?
        Then die again, until your proper time,
        When summer holds your heartbeat in its slime.






      
      24
                xvi
      
      
      The white stone spreading from the hangnail down
      To its abrupt and bottom edge no doubt
      Once served some purpose other than to clown
      At walls turned dark before you mustered out.
      And now the ear that authorised my joy
      But toots the toddle with a children's fife,
      And sword or razor, treated as a toy,
      Can sooner cut the bull than canvas life.
      Unchampioned, I charge from now to nether,
      The barking baron of a shrinking fief,
      Shorn of tonsure, scorning issue leather,
      And unbelieved-in by my own belief.
        Even the lilac is not quite exempt :
        Who only watch must watch it grow unkempt.






      
      25
                xvii
      
      
      These tulips, squeezing water from my gaze :
      Stoned posy pugilist, spring ignorant, un-Hoyle
      They bid with trumpets buried in the soil
      A seed-eschewing bumpkin, seeking praise;
      And bidding broad the starburst of its days,
      Outspringing spring while April's still a boil
      Above the iris, lilac will despoil
      The featherbud the lingering hoarfrost frays.
        Your lilac is its own excuse, and grows
      At will through weeds, frost, annuals, or raindrops,
      Where long roots more than balance lack of reason;
      I, like the tuber, swing rope-handled hoes
      At frozen ground : my roots run back to Aesop's,
      But swell too soon without their proper season.






      
      26
                xviii
      
      
      Caught in the trellis of my ancient art
      Your shape was sure; the penknife's crafty blade
      Pared you from doubt, and pruned you for a part :
      You grew as I grew skilled, and life grew grayed.
      Then you were green and easy in the morning,
      When every shadow lit out with my thought;
      But I paid dues to manners of adorning,
      When interest was due to what I wrought.
      I absensented about some household duties
      While you stood dusted on the study shelf,
      Caught the lilac's breath, fleshed out your beauties,
      And sang your name : not lilac, sprout, or elf.
        Now you breathe, and I must mourn with Shylock,
        Knowing that woman bleeds, unlike the lilac.






      
      27
                xix
      
      
      Though I was regent when you were the plant
      Of faded leaves cast from the garden stalks
      Of those who grew before us, now the grant
      Runs finally out, and I must take lone walks
      And wash that platform's sawdust from my talks.
      I see you now, grown out of certain form,
      No blossom-headed, lilac-limbed Guy Fawkes
      Who centers in the cotton-candied norm
      That poets use to keep their pillows warm;
      Only the myth burns out, alight from friction
      Of straw vote lost as we contest the quorum
      Of days that ballot from a common diction.
        Then how will all this Independent choice
        Convene our House to vote a single voice?






      
      28
                xx
      
      
      Loveliest of blooms, the lilac's hue
      Is strewn in heady harness on the lane --
      The thick-thumbed plumes need but an hour's dew
      To stoop them down, and I am tall again.
      Such is June's quick fiction, that this flood
      In swelling out the flowers' lilac tide
      Can visit Lazarus on forgotten blood
      And goad amoebic liquids into pride.
      Now what was missing and presumed as dead
      Through winter's care and cautious husbandry
      Is closer than a thought is to the head
      And close as touching, if you're touching me --
        So let us seal the loan and spend the note
        To go where the lilac is, and kiss her throat.






      
      29
                xxi
      
      
      The world bulks broad between my sun and me
      And all the State's long tar holds her away.
      Should eyes own plastic when they cannot see
      Her light, or they drive darkness from their day?
      Artificial flowers can't betray
      The hunger that keeps flesh affirmed to bone :
      The plow will be employed, whatever may.
      And though I tend ecliptic days alone,
      Succeeding strokes need not become a drone
      If I draw out what bloom is in my care --
      Though nature age, she does not turn a crone.
      Then blunder forth, and name the morning fair :
        The breathless, quiet lilac still knows more
        Of either world divided by a door.






      
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                xxii
      
      
      How shall I keep the lithe life of this passion?
      Stone is stubborn; money too soon spent;
      The worth of words flirts in and out of fashion,
      Too short and filmy to confine intent --
      No.  Even if this pulse should lie with you,
      Where does it lie, and where lies any truth?
      Does it become your hair, a turn of shoe,
      Or misdirect the firmnesses of youth?
      I am no yardstick, being short in age,
      And cannot tailor wisdom to the facts;
      Each yesterday leaves but a single gauge :
      How much life swells today out of those acts.
        So I will do, and relish even doubt,
        And pity lilac, that must do without.






      
      31
                /l'envoi/
      
      
      I am a crock at caroling my love:
      I sing the Grumman Gulfstream, terns engrossed
      In fishing, vics of geese, the eagle's boast,
      The old war iron, and most that flies above;
      But when it comes to whom I'm dreaming of
      I am a dunce, dense where it counts the most;
      I think upon what I propose to toast
      And these keys stammer to a metal glove.
       But birds fly south and bats fly IFR
      And none had lessons in their airy art;
      Yet they have left behind the allosaur
      For ends unknown, and so invented Sartre.
      I sit here staring with my mouth ajar:
      The words have chosen me.  I'd better start.






      
      32
           /Ardea Herodias/
      
      
      The Great Blue Heron is his name.
        This misproportioned bird
      Combines in title and in frame
        The regal and absurd.
      
      By working wings, he could make flight
        And leave the swamp behind,
      But mothers aerophobic fright
        And falls within his mind.
      
      He stands up on one slender peg
        Where everyone can spot him,
      But will not let the other leg
        For fear it won't find bottom.
      
      He clucks that swamps are pretty fates,
        That you elope to him
      Because the problems he creates
        Can't fly, and will not swim.
      
      Your heron lover struts a slough
        With all his feathers shaking,
      Honking that his heart's for you
        And other bellyaching.






      
      33
                Out of Favor
      
      
      No wind to ride to battle, cold's a charmer
      With a folded knife.  Long jealous chill
      Had muttered thick, blunt fingers at my armor,
      Fumbling for an entrance, but a spill
      Of sable showed her favor, laid good will
      Upon my collar, proof against the cold;
      And at the list, my favor found me bold.
      
      But wind gulped at my collar, caught it bare
      And galloped off.  Cold snickered, mounted, reeled
      About, charged to the jousts on its foundling mare,
      Then struck my stake, crossed lance and clashed at shield,
      Ripped riposte, and rammed me to the field.
      Not steel nor flesh the heel upon my collar;
      And screeching white's his grinning, gargoyle leer.
      
      The wind moans no more, but only I --
      And Mnemosyne mocks warmer days when I
      Once walked in courtlier ways.  Companion cold
      Trails fingers down my back and shares my bed,
      And wearies now the shoulder at whose fold
      Once laid the sable of a friend, instead
      Of this intemperate, alien, heavy head.
      






      
      34
           One, Two
      
      
      One hundred thousand
      stars and one
      (half)
      couple affirm the
      (near)
      delicacy of a
      July evening.






      
      35
           /Didus Ineptus/
      
      
      I say you fogged my telescope
      And left my blinking mind to grope
        And find the cosmos back,
      Though all the proof I have for showing
      Something lingers past your going
        Is that the stars are black.






      
      36
                /Equus Caballus/
      
      
      You said my pony shaggy, said no good
      For riding in by lady, said him ain't
      Worth powder shoot him, said my pony should
      Be thoroughbred, not spotted, peeling paint.
      But you not look on inside : have strong motor,
      Not big eater, go to Denver in
      A day : what he save buy fur for coat or
      Keep tent warm or squaw from getting thin.
      You buried hatched in my auto : then
      I see you look for shadow of this brave
      In wampum, horse, and blankets; that is when
      I lock up wife-price : I not be your slave.
        When this brave cold at night him not desire
        Log make heap big smoke and nothing fire.






      
      37
                Thought
      
      
      How soft often is your love
      In a summer stuffy garret
      In the sibilant sliding of nightwatch
      In the green glow between
           downtown and destination
      
      When I am not yet with you
      Not quite with me
      How soft often is your love






      
      38
                Past Summer
      
      
      smoke floats in flat flakes
      halfway from the floor
      
      the steady grunting of bubbles
      up from the pump to the top of the fish tank
      is cracked by the dry crunch
      of an expended brown filter tip
      and the crash crunched from an empty pack
      
      outside a nicotine stained window the sun
      a chipped china plate splattered with old egg
      watches the yard reel in a fungoid
      rapture of brown protoplasm
      and shrugs the final fall of summer
      
      corpses of the autumn festival lie
      moldering in brown corners
      causing even the moon
      to turn her nose last night
      and wait for winter to bury them
      
      the yellow harvest is laid out in barns
      and left over from those yellow days
      is a dull pain by my left arm
      but it only throbs when I prod it
      
      and the cat slides past my chair
      sniffing once and passing over
      the metronome of poems that kiss the carpet
      with all the moans they once
      saved for us






      
      39
                /Rana Pipiens/
      
      
           /"The enhanced strength of the nerve 
      impulse...
            is compatible with the well-known fact that
            a frog ignores a food object until it 
      moves."/
                                            -- Wooldridge
      
      Tweak the black bead, watch the tongue's quick shoves.
      Now draw the damsel past him on a wire :
      She moves a long leg, and the man-frog loves.
      
      With Skinner Box and chart, the whitesmock proves
      Survival's certain cellular desire :
      Tweak the black bead, watch the tongue's quick shoves
      
      For instant food.  (Instead of tadpole-droves,
      A rubber duck is all that he might sire :
      She moves a long leg, and the man-frog loves.)
      
      But as he mulls men, dogs, and nestling doves,
      His cheek domes as beliefs are mixed with mire :
      Tweak the black bead.  Watch the tongue's quick shoves.
      
      The bees and birds that dappled apple groves
      Repealed his legends in an office flyer :
      "She moves a long leg, and the man-frog loves."
      
      He strips the knowledge with his rubber gloves,
      To purchase candies for his sweet, and sigh her.
      Tweak the black bead, watch the tongue's quick shoves.
      She moves a long leg, and the man-frog loves.






      
      40
                Photograph
      
      
      A prodigal of light that dared the shutter
        Slipped the blackened gate and smeared the film:
      A lens-flare leans against the garden's flatter.
        Lips pursed, I nudge an image for an alm,
        But is that yours, or but a lilac limb?
      That was our fault : we spared of private ways
      To click our cameras at the lilac days.






      
      41
                Phone Call
      
      
      If I were a capsuled, starbound pilot
      Instead of occasionally handy with torches
      I could round the trip in one minute
      Flat.  But I couldn't say hi.  Time is
      Glue, if you've got too much to do in it,
      
      Or little.  Well, I've got this pump.  Why
      Not play that record and crack the Pernod?
      the socket by your chair can charge my
      Drill over four hundred times a second,
      Chopin to workbench, and might say hi :
      
      We're on the same wire, anywhere,
      Courtesy copper.  But cast-iron pumps crack.
      The grouting is tedious, even with power;
      Then four hours of stiffarming traffic.
      And the sealer would have stuck your hair.






      
      42
                Homo Sap
      
      
         /Candy is dandy, but sex won't rot your 
      teeth./
                                           -- graffiti
      
      Now, dragging this poem by one arm like a ragdoll,
      I wonder, from the wraparound steel pall
        That sheens your eyes, to your Corfam-cuddled feet
        That seek to hurl the street back at the street,
      Why I thought I'd win.  You owned the ball.
      
      While the faint fist of the damper fought the night
        And you stepped tender, borne on your pooling slip,
      You glistened with long promise in orange light,
        But held your presence packaged short : one strip
      Still censored out your central heat with the white,
      
      Blunt finality of a broken tooth.
        Unbased by the specie of your price,
      I reassembled the cocksure stance of truth
        Foot by foot, away from the sudden ice,
      A pipe to prop the cavities of youth.
      
      The razor grates through daily-doubling hairs
      That blue my jowls to nearly-matching pairs
        Of work apparel; and your near-disaster
        Heals, stopped with styptic, neatly topped with plaster :
      A private plot that puts on public airs.






      
      43
                An Immodest Proposal (ii)
      
      
      An empty tent-shell, held up to the sky :
      So stand my days, and in the mornings, I.
      The caravan of autumn sounds retreat
      And leaves its husks, yet I lack central heat,
      And with the dead of winter, do not dance,
      But slide my stiffening legs into cold pants.
      
      The woodshed creaks of sweat, my books are clerked,
      My windows caulked; long, weary years I've worked
      To plot a purpose in the course of stars,
      Watching bright Virgo flee ascending Mars,
      When in one night, I could define desire :
      The fire orange in the hearth; you orange in fire.
      
      Though I find satellites to orbit Venus,
      Winter rolls dry solstice between us,
      Erasing those dual moons' head-filling light.
      You could loose my want, and them from night :
      Let fall that umbral wraparound, and show
      Their sun-tipped mountains melting winter's snow!
      
      We praise the music, muse on every art,
      But when I praise you, you pray to depart,
      Exclaiming need.  Brief bodiment of hope,
      Your orbit spurns my questing telescope;
      Your sterile, astral air won't let me scan it,
      Sliding beneath a people-covered planet
      
      When I would man you, blanket you with breath,
      And slide your slopes to sleep.  If sleep be death,
      What fitter way to doze than promised life
      And dreams again?  No astrogating wife
      Can lay more dreaming out before a man
      Than one short night of sleep in winter can,
      
      And night rounds on.  Tomorrow dims your beam
      As orange moonlight fades to pale cream,
      And cream turns sour.  Then will you quote me Keats
      And put my head to sleep between dry sheets?
      Thinking you'll someday serve some aging fellow,
      Do you chill the meat to give him tallow?
      
      As though the race depended on the new,
      You fly my fireplace, paying to pursue
      A holocryptic course.  Though you absorb it,
      You'll not depart one meter from your orbit,
      But, whirling through a certain unit span,
      Approach eclipse, and end where you began.
      
      My solitary scholar's hand has curled
      A callus on its handle on the world.
      Still ignorant of spring, I'd cling to you
      In final seminar; learn that it will do
      To know each other, knowing we will die,
      Extending our season with a little lie.






      
      44
                At the Seashore
      
      
      I sat to do some fishing at time's slipstream,
      To noodle in my noodle for some whosit
      Right of rain and left of chocolate icecream.
      Got you instead.  Now there you've made me lose it.
      Renoir, Renoir, your women.  Who they are
      Is immaterial as the singing gold
      They stroke throughout the doldrums of your blues :
      The chart says greens and blues are always cold,
      But here is that conversion of the Muse
      That Marvell spoke.  Was egg and pigment all
      You used to show why Paris came so far?
      Unquestioned answer, posed against my wall :
        Whatever look that Anna gave the Czar,
        I know the look a woman gave Renoir.






      
      45
                East of Midnight
      
      
      Because of you, I suffer many dreams,
      But haven't Pilate's bromide heed of Rome.
      The minutes shake their fists : I am the home
           Of lesser schemes.
      
           A full moon rims
      The leaded compass of the sleeping lake
      And thoughts grown oak and lilac : that you wake
      The numb amoebas of my clumsy limbs.
      
           The minutes pass.
      My arms, that slowly turned to worms of jello
      Bound by dull steel molds, report the pillow
           'S cosmic mass.






      
      46
                Heracritic
      
      
      Here the heron stands in silhouette,
      Lilac to lilting lilac, walleye's dread;
      But here the heron stands with one leg wet
           And nothing said.
      
           His weapon sways
      As liquid dims the color of his dream;
      And while he seeks the lilac of his days,
      The walleye, like the Greek, has moved downstream.






      
      47
           Say the Secret Word
           and Get the Bird
      
      
      I sing sublime seasons
       For secular reasons
        And you,
      But what is a love
       With the voice and the face of a dove?
        Or what's it to you?
      The winners of graces
       All wear different faces.
        The crowd gapes the same way I do.
      
      I would be wise
       To wear a disguise --
        To smile for a while inscrutable as a guru,
      But I am immured
       In the brain of a bird
        With a voice that is flatulent, too :
      My singular mode of address
       Turns over the tactic of letting you guess
        (Turns over more guts than a few),
      And though you despise it,
       I blink my dove eyes at
        Your countenance, prize it,
         And coo.






      
      48
                Morning After
      
      
      Tough trick, printing a tattoo
      Across the convolutions of my brain,
      (But light that lost the lissome weight of you
           Became my gain);
      
        This secondhand homunculus
      Is well aware of one, but numb to two,
      And every other self-wrought wrinkle thus
           Transfigures you.
      
      Now I've you my way, at my ease,
      Instead of new directions you might drop;
      Such liberty for you, the gut agrees,
           'Sa lousy swap.






      
      49
                Solar Eclipse
      
      
      Keep your brass home, obnoxious star.
      Your nose is where in-senses are,
           And none too gay --
      I'll not have night's skulldiggetry
      Spied on by your blue bigotry
           Or burned this way.
      
      You dilute the spirited gloom
      To light the cobwebs in the room
           And scare the mice :
      Remember the Fourth.  Wise up and quit
      Before your zeal makes you commit
           A civil vice.
      
      Too late.  Long laws decree you must
      Arrest my blood and cloud my dust
           With normal sight
      And win again.  So serve your bill.
      The shadows of her body will
           Be back tonight.






      
      50
      Through a Glass, Darkly
      
      
      What would be the gain
      If I left unshattered
      The one unbroken pane?
      The rest allow the rain
      To leave my carpet watered.
      What would be the gain
      If some moth left the lane
      For my lone bulb, and battered
      The one unbroken pane
      And drove himself insane?
      If I thought we still mattered,
      What would be?  The gain
      Is small though we maintain
      That my reflection flattered
      The one unbroken pane.
      I've paced my crowded brain
      Until my carpet's tattered.
      What would be the gain?
      The one unbroken pane.






      
      51
                Mama's Girl
      
      
      That molt of Mom you're wearing
      Is a leather beyond bearing --
      But nudity's too daring
        Even if the weather's nice;
      The comfort it disposes,
      Warmer than the stones of Moses,
      Like the best of other clothes, is
        Quite becoming for a vice.
      
      You'd trade it for a nickel
      If you didn't think it fickle
      (And the truth would not so tickle!),
        And you could but do it twice;
      But, done, there's no returning
      Nor entreating for your burning
      (Not for all your stomach's churning!)
        Though a God may throw the dice.
      
      For, once the die has tumbled,
      Showing how the cooky crumbled,
      All the knowledge it has mumbled
        Is as firm's a mainbrace splice,
      And all the guests at wedding
      Irrespective of the bedding
      Cannot change the compass heading
        When the truth has thrown the rice.
      
      You hem and haw your knowledge
      All the way through postgrad college,
      But will not let go your dollage
        Or your other child's device:
      Just like any other scoffer,
      You warn away the offer,
      Click the locket of your coffer,
        Then you quibble at the price.
      
      Be you off with all your holler
      For my love and for my dollar,
      For the pressure at my collar
        Is approaching that and twice;
      You have left behind your growing
      And your cooking and your sewing
      For your oxymoron-throwing,
        And I'm telling you to /schmeiss/.1

      --------------------

      1.  Shit or get off the pot.






      
      52
           Preface to the Second Edition
      
      
      I'd take us slowly.  You are not the first.
      Suspicion, scar of trust, hamstrings the will
      Though joy leaps highest that has been rehearsed;
      No joint deposit, this, but touch submersed
      In coarse, protective tissues; a private ill.
      I'd take us slowly, you.  Are not the first
      The crash curricula, and old wounds worst
      Trickers of tendon, to list limbs with a chill?
      Though joy leaps highest that has been rehearsed,
      All practice certifies is further thirst;
      The least of scores is told an equal bill,
      So take us slowly.  You are not the first
      To stride against my side, perhaps to burst
      Some unprotected hope against rough skill,
      Though joy leaps highest; that has been rehearsed
      Until the curtain yawns, critiqued and cursed
      Until the moves cliche and limbs slump.  Still,
      I'd take us.  Slowly.  You are not the first --
      Though joy leaps highest that has been rehearsed.






      
      53
           A Little Giddy
      
      
      An empty tent shell, held up to the sky :
      So stand my blankets in the morning.  Why?
      Is it because the Petro-shortage sends
      The price of Brylcreem too high for two friends?
      Or is it that you think I'll merely woo ya
      Without time for a little dabble?  Do ya?
      Or love too much too much that makes me fickle
      When there's but one I tickle, tickle, tickle?
      
      But feathers are as feathers do, of course,
      And Pegasus will rise as hard as horse,
      Is seldom led and sooner made to drink,
      Eats oat bran, sweats, leaves things that start to stink,
      And while he swears you're not much of a load,
      He picks his teeth, his nose, and every road.
      But carry you he will : the saddle horn
      You rub while riding is with what he's born;
      And if you'd rather walk, he'll mope : he's useless,
      Your muddy feet and heavy style excuseless.
      
      Or fear the horse is dated by the cart
      That belches gas, is driven by a fart;
      Dependent on the ones who want, who use,
      And every one of all who shop your dues,
      Who'd rather have the manly sort of boys
      That make us livestock, marvel at the toys
      By which they move from romper room to Bradley
      To doing nothing much and rather badly,
      Afraid to bark, content to be the fleas
      Whose printed money lets them print degrees
      In everything their puppy would eschew,
      Now one for Michelson, now one for you,
      That thus they vote to once and finally larn us
      That we will cut the hay, and they, the harness,
      Who, lacking heat to rear a central peg,
      Content themselves to sniff and raise the leg
      Or elevate a puler to a pundit
      Who'll woof the hoof as long as they will fund it --
      But most in need of roads, and those who send?
      You've swapped the horse for just the other end.
      
      Because I do not chase the dome and steeple
      I am not curried by the kinds of people
      Who say their praise designs what's in the blood
      But nonetheless demand my get at stud,
      Then blinker it to prove a certain future,
      And hamstring to bestow the gift of suture;
      Who measure place by whom they can impugn
      And stature in the depth of the spittoon :
      These are the rulers.  Let them buzz and bloat,
      Let them redress their grievances, and vote
      To nomenclate the world with what they meant,
      And watch the other hand fill up with scent.
      
      Were we the timeless spirits they would wish
      To cruise agape like certain boneless fish
      Whose one commandment is to swim and swallow
      Letting the other fill their little hollow,
      Whose ectoplasm features a facade
      Between sabbaticals they spend with God,
      All would come in Herakleitic time
      And you could have it all by simple mime --
      But which, the paragon to emulate,
      When all your fellows strive to stand and wait?
      What you would do, do now.  While you would dare
      To lift your hemline, cut your class or hair,
      To see or be seen seeing, I grow old
      And at the juncture of my trousers, cold.
      
      Oh, what fastidious and proper rage!
      That I remark of my, and thus your, age!
      But that is nothing, being only bruised
      In the exact amount it isn't used :
      The first stroke of the plow will tear the field
      Far more than subsequent trespasses yield,
      Not in the labor, but in making strange,
      Nor in the tender, but the total change;
      And so we hear the virgin grunt and squeal
      And weep and blame, and everything but feel,
      Then hold one ever liable because
      He's taken everything she ever was.
      
      Let's quit this comedy of decent topics,
      And other measurements by pole and tropics
      To leap the flaming sun in leaping ditches,
      And leave these pentecostal sons-of-itches
      Groping their fellows, bawling on the floor,
      Then leaping to translate some noise some more,
      Indicting what may rise above their ash kind --
      Our nearness to the sun will leave them flash blind.
        But if you take the route you're born to take
      That wants me swordless, Lady of my Lake
      Who comes by night to flicker in my lamp,
      Whose leaping shadows leave me rather damp,
      Then leave by day quite knowing what you came for
      (Exactly what I am to take the blame for),
      But not exactly how I'm to admit it,
      Shit, get off the pot, or just forget it:
      To classify offense and tell the lashes
      Neither burns, nor hauls another's ashes.
      
        Lady, you think you still pursue a leopard
      But we are not a thing you can store, kippered,
      Until your purpose bursts forth, quite fulfilled:
      That's botulus, and maimed more than it killed.
      Where in one waning dusk like any other
      I caught you looking like your sudden mother,
      Spastic in love and purposeless in hate,
      Jealous of all she won't appreciate,
      If not appreciate, at least possess,
      If not to have, then order into mess,
      If not to set to rule, then sit to dream
      Your will to recapitulate the theme
      Fixed upon the turning of your face
      While standing in the middle of my place
      A compound and confounded wholly ghost.
        The will to have you will not have me toast
      A will that needs a sucker for its kicks
      Or precorrelative on which to fix
      In that suspension of the snow, when ice
      However it cannot win, is still not nice,
      And Easter fiddles with the flint, the choir
      Is full of sparrows, but there is no fire :
      The only promise I have sworn to keep
      Is that the woods are lovely, fly or creep;
      And of the season you'd excuse your fear,
      We each of us will have it every year
      And I've no interest in twice-done things
      For school's too short to divvy up with kings.

        I am in no way eager to repeat
      The parables my students use to cheat
      The meaning out of what I said them for;
      The clothes no longer wear their emperor
      Though most, I grant, find paradise enow
      Whenever babes show willingness to bow
      To any lesson they have never heard,
      Provided it prove living is absurd.
        Let them too flourish, hedgehogs in a row
      Examining their navels, that they show
      A bully world their common backs and bristles
      For they're sure the flowers have some thistles,
      A fall from grace that is to be abhorred
      For that it snapped the umbilical cord,
      Who, scared by purpose, wondering at grails
      Will lick at all, but mostly under tails;
      Who curse the earth to show they love the sky;
      Who'd suck the thumb, but stick it in the eye.
      
        The notion that the soul is built to bathe
      Will bolt no lover's coffin to a lathe,
      For how can there be any sense of fun
      When everything that can be, has been, done
      Save waking up one morning as a blank
      With nothing but your ignorance to spank?
      
        I'm not indifferent to your bootless plight
      (Am not indifferent, or I would not write).
      Love is not love, that alters what it know
      Or bends to level with what will not grow,
      Not love, that only flies in retrospect
      And never rises out of ground effect,
      But beats its breast in back of every church
      And counts it genuflection, that it lurch;
      Not love, that creep to mollify the mole :
      The love to gallop dares the gopher hole,
      But one step is a step too far to feel
      For those who want to gallop while they kneel.
      
      
        And let the whole earth heave, that petrophage
      Will show your mayfly what it means to rage,
      Ignoring your Canute trip and command
      By carrying away one grain of sand
      Will dig up all that is no friend to you
      And place your ancient crimes on public view
      To make your enemy once-common youth
      Who knelt with you to nail or sabre-tooth,
        So you have found that, for destruction, ice
      Need not put one foot forward to suffice.
      That's nice.  And greater, too; you had to kiss
      One step to fire to fathom even this.
        Where there were hills, it dug great lakes; it 
      charmed
      One river over half a land, for taste;
      Of all that's loveable in this, the best
      Is that it won't allow you any rest:
      It drove our species from its little cave
      And turned the woolly mammoth from his grave,
      But not to trumpet;
      
                          and for its goal
      It rolls the world into a little hole.
      
                     * * *
      
      unfinished






      
      54
           Stopping by Words
           on a Snowy Evening
      
      
      We shared, with words we think we know,
      The click of cocoa after snow
      While coats and thoughts cast off the chill
      They carried in from miles ago,
      
      And we were scared with difference.  Still
      Our doubt agreed with joy until
      But part of every sight was true
      Without space left to swell or spill
      
      Small silences.  We knew we knew,
      And saying into silence grew.
      How, how we wished we wished to stay!
      But each had things he must, to do
      
      Before he had the right to play.
      We touched, before the day was day
      And stretched our scarves for five below
      And set our feet to pay our pay --
      
      One pair to stay, the other go,
      Afraid the other could not know
      The love that set our footprints so.






      
      55
           Complete Edition (II)
      
      
      If we had food enough, and time,
      Your coyness weren't unseasoned crime:
      I'd ply your upper mouth with all
      The relish you could bite,
      And stuff your plate and table 'til
      Your other mouth would cry its fill.
      To every taste, I'd put such herbs
      And accent us with nouns and verbs
      Across the lucid candlelight
      And wine between each little bite,
      And all would be in braziers or
      Ice buckets, so the least encore
      Would pipe its heat or pass its chill
      Until the waitress brought the bill.
      My little beefsteak love should grow
      Tenderer than sirloin, though
      Not near as flat, for we would dance:
      Your knees would rub against my pants
      Until the dawn and steak and eggs
      And wine, and glimpses of your legs.
      
      You could, if you'd a mind, refuse
      Until the Brits abandoned stews,
      Or languish in a pretty pout
      'Til Germans quit their wurst and kraut.
      You could (and would) insist a while
      'Til Slavs said borscht was out of style,
      And I became your only peeker
      And Hungary had quit paprika.
      You'd wait until I had a stoop
      The French quit making onion soup,
      The Twins had traded Rod Carew,
      And Swedes abandoned /lefse/, too.
      
      And this would be the way to bite
      If world abandoned appetite,
      But world wants its turn tasting too,
      And needs no recipe for you.
      There's world enough.  Its only crime
      'S to bite a man before his time.
      Before the age grows much more middler
      Come, ride the belly of this riddler;
      You make all world a belly dancer
      Before you will allow your answer,
      Or insist all come to terms,
      We'll ride the bellies of the worms.






      
      56
           Six and the Single Girl
      
      
      In a huff sat a great horny owl
      Who harrumphed as he ruffled his jowl,
           "A bird who stands neuter
           Is not worth a hooter,
      I swear by my mutter most fowl."
      
      
      "Your sinuous snake in Your grass,"
      Accused Eve, but the Snake called it sass:
           He denied, with a giggle,
           "No way, could I wiggle
      Like that, when I haven't an ass!"
      
      
      A young dinosaur cried to his friend,
      "I won't molt, then I won't have to mend!"
           'Til his shape was absurd
           And his vision was blurred
      And his brain couldn't find his ascend.
      
      
      He taught, did a Hottentot fluter,
      A Hottentot tot how to toot 'er.
           Should the tutor get hot
           Now the Hottentot tot
      Hoot and toot at the Hottentot tutor?
      
      
      Said a scallop who thought it too cruel
      That the grating of sand grow a jewel :
           "I'll keep it all out
           By withdrawing my snout,"
      And the pressure reduced her to drool.
      
      
      Said an oyster of calcerous curl,
      "Foot it all!  I'm no longer a girl;
           I have practiced at sand;
           Though my figure expand,
      It is time that I ventured a pearl!"









      
      57
           The Right Stuff
      
      
           Hey, diddle, diddle,
           The puss you would fiddle
      May eat of the government grass,
           And whenever a kitty
           Eats grass, you will ditty
      Two deluges, never the lass:
      
           For the money that rain
           Will so water the brain
      That it plain ever more than it moon,
           And money in hand
           From the cozy you planned,
      Your dish runs away with your spoon.






      
      58
           A Valediction : Forbidding Poetry
      
      
      We are two kinds of fool, all fools will know
      Who choose to love, and strain at saying so :
      If I have loved you all of one whole day
      That's no more choice than wetted dust makes clay,
      And clay grows man.  It is no work of mine
      That you accent my comfortable line,
      For, like the lilac or the pike, that comes
      Of what is drunk up, and it badly sums
      To chew it choice what is no more than flow
      And poetry, what's only saying so.
      
      Busy old fools, unruly pens will run
      To absent fondnesses from sun to sun
      In some low dudgeon that, if left to keep
      Would still on waking whine that atoms sleep,
      And I, and you.  Then as the baby squeaks
      Until he has his mom between his cheeks
      So poets writhe and grunt, imagine saint
      Whatever rosy countenance they aint,
      'Til, having tried the world, and lastly found
      The memory they grieved, they make no sound.
      
      To love is easy; to dispense, divine :
      But it is neither to bespeak a line,
      For lineage, jealous of itself at first
      But finds, when all the notions are rehearsed,
      The struts and frets that truss the laurel tone
      Are diligent -- but practiced all alone;
      And when, at last, the pregnant jostle fits,
      It goes among the audience, and sits
      To patiently peruse its emptied phrase,
      And wait the breath of lineage to praise.
      
      If we would help, then let us kiss and part,
      And pray the act will never lead to art;
      No : let it be a contract of the two
      That we will never write of what we do,
      For praying leads to dreams and dreams to lines
      That try the head with that the heart designs
      In genius : and it start forth and then
      Stumbles upon the protractor and pen;
      No, no; for how shall lawyers redefine
      A contract that we break if we but sign?
      
      Stop; let us halt these lines as well, but how?
      For couplets are to couples as the plow
      To wheat, whose blade but scrapes along the lead
      And scrapes again, and never stops to seed
      Until it run quite out of room, the field
      All turned about, whatever it may yield.
      Then put an end to this unbridled beat
      Before the pigweed rise among the wheat
      And end this singing sooner than the swan,
      Else while I sing, you will have upped and gone.






      
      59
                Allegretto
      
      
      I should by trees' furs oozing into green
        Learn blooming spring and so learn love,
      But all my sauces shudder like the lean
           And treading dove.
      
      I should by lilacs ringing from the clay
        Their royal robes prove summer loves,
      But my brown brain will rabbit out of May
           To strip the groves.
      
      The acorn's autumn should have taught all things
        Their travels as the red oak roves,
      But all my raving chatter only sings
           The squirrel too loves,
      
      And only winter and the ringing wood
        Within the tree and ticking stove
      That hold but hints of generation could
           Teach me to love.






      
      60
                Fred
      
      
      There was an old flocker named Fred
      Whose younger wife took me to bed.
        To get even with me,
        He invented V.D.
      By using his ewes in her stead.






      
      61
      
      
        Kind lovers, love on,
        Lest the world be undone,
      And mankind be lost by degrees:
        For if all from their loves
        Should go wander in groves,
      There soon would be nothing but trees.
                          -- John Crowne
      
      
           John Crowned
      
      
        We returned from the groves
        In our driblets and droves
      All repenting of scribbling squibs,
        And as lovers loved on.
        Now the world is undone
      For the trees are all cut to make cribs.
      
      
           (C) 1991 Poultry: a Magazine of Voice






      
      62
           Dover Bitch -- a Note to a Discord
      
      
      At thirty-nine a man's a fool to wait
      To see if what would trip him with its hate
      Can trip him still and still intends to try.
      The world's worst ebb has not the bittern's cry.
      
      At thirty-nine a fellow's fool to whim
      That he can loft a boy by tripping him
      By tangling the feet or, worse, the tongue.
      Luke mentions the recycling such dung.
      
      We have enough to trip, arriving lame :
      So much of it we have to give one name
      Ten times or twelve to get it still unsung
      And half but quote a more familiar tongue
      
      The fortyish would rather not misplace,
      To back against when supercalendered drool
      Rises to engulf the eager face
      Sent sprawling by an overfortied fool.
      
      Easier to walk out on the purebred boys
      Then teach towns ease with what their mothers said
      And worse, with what their mothers wouldn't say.
      Easier to walk out on the purebred toys
      That look back at the infant like the infant,
           Easier to teach the taught.
      
      We live with what we make of need
      But wishes have too much of greed
           To wish we might,
      And brought the evil when we came
      In law elected not for name
           But appetite.
      
      Ten generations we have had of this,
      A bloodline that will not quite kiss
           As well as should,
      But constitutes a bloodline where
      The blooded do not really care
           That much for blood.
      
      Exhibit girls no longer drive the gods
      Long in the loins and slack beside the lip;
      Instead across the air there promenades
           A gameshow quip,
      
      And who would want a lifetime of that plod,
      Let alone eternity, per label
      On the average or exhibit god?
           To have at table
      
      A water doll, that moves so well in sable
      And it came with the required posture
      (Unplugged from the everpresent cable)
           And what it cost yer.
      
      The snowflakes settle on the summer heat,
      As in this place we watch the Ice Age melt,
      Isaiah's children publish how to treat
           The temperate belt.






      
      63
           Secondhand Rows
      
      
      Walk the Milky Way to here,
      Wipe the moon's smile off your feet,
      Drink the Cauldron for its cheer,
      Haul the Coal Sack home for heat,
      Ride the Horse Head 'til he flies on
      Over the Event Horizon,
           So far
           No star
      Will light where virgin atoms are.
      
      Lilith was the only broad
      Cobbled up from virgin clay;
      Every girl thereafter, God
      Made up from an old bouquet,
      Nor can any contemplator
      Tell who's used by her creator,
           What rage
           Mend age
      By building mind a younger cage.
      
      All your aristocracy
      Lies in skin and circumstance,
      While the teaching world's degree
      Freezes in your little glance;
      That is why my age will warden
      Pawned Eve in my little garden
           And she
           As free
      As your pretended novelty.






      
      64
      
      
      Dear Jud,
           I shud
      Not make such rhymes in public,
           But if
           A tiff
      Can't straw itself in tatters,
           And must
           Be cussed
      With eloquence that flatters
           The dolt
           The bolt
      Of words is made to scrublick,
           So that
           Elat
      Raise every Jill and John, it's
           A hard
           Canard
      You unction in your column:
           Keep my 
           Words high
      With nowhere to install 'em,
           Can feat
           Complete
      Three hundred fifty sonnets?






      
      65
                The Phantom Swing
      
      
      The window swung where you sat 'round your thumb
      In vagrant breezes of an afternoon,
      And painted you behind the blooming plum
      As if you gathered what would all too soon
      
      Be merely litter on the sun-thatched ground
      With spring shot through; and then the window swung
      And sat you in the swing, as if it found
      The things of spring without you, quite unsung.
      
      And then my heart hitched, and the heavy thing
      Recalled that photo, set without ado
      One spring ago, so sitting in the swing:
      Here are two swings, but only one of you.






      
      66
           Happy Birthday
      
      
      There was a time when daring you
      Was cleverness beyond all bounds
      And what you wore was gift-wrap, too,
      To be removed with pleasant sounds.
       I cannot count how often we
       Exchanged gifts under any tree,
      
      The leaves a pleasant itch to scratch.
      We never dallied under pines,
      In poison ivy, briar patch,
      Or any sort of clinging vines;
       We took great care with where we did
       And none with what each other bid.
      
      Now the leaves are falling fast
      And clouds are massed before the moon;
      My mind as well is overcast
      With things I wish I could maroon
       Well out upon the lake tonight
       And be instead your acolyte,
      
      But I am old, with less to smile
      Than formerly, when I knew not
      What being such a logophile
      Would find about our polyglot
       And what it says of those who speak
       Or how it is its own critique.
      
      The age has little left of grace,
      Has not so much as heard of Attic,
      Sits to stuff the infant face
      With "rights" insisted "democratic."
       From every medium is sung
       The tawdry cheapness of the young
      
      That throws into the parent face
      The challenge of an empty glove,
      An empty mouth, an empty place,
      And has itself for center of
       The universe of every deed
       But knows our vengeance in its need
      
      And grows a season just to die
      And winter out, and rise again
      (And never learn the reason why.)
      But cut for music or the pen
       Even reeds may take a part
       In little matters of the heart.
      
      And so I sit and suck my fist,
      My keyboard shut behind my door;
      I cannot tell my analyst
      A single thing I love you for
       And there are those, I'm sure of that,
       Would say I only love the cat
      
      And he has died.  If I said love
      Depended on a state of mind
      Or heart, or the existence of
      A woman who is mainly kind
       As you and I have been at times
       Our love would not be worth two dimes,
      
      One yours, one mine, for calling to
      Our friend apiece -- for we do not
      Each other call but to eschew
      What either said.  Our Angloglot
       Will teach our children to befriend
       Whatever they cannot amend
      
      And swim to glory in the wake
      Of anything that has the mind
      To row instead of pattycake
      The waves that keep them halfway